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My Life

actually nothg to blog..im just feeling very worried.. i havnt finish even a page of my prep work for art.. havent revise most stuff.. i tink im gonna flop POA..s.h.i.t lar..science?wad d hell..i hate science[i cn say it for nw]..i hope i gain at least sth for oey after all my efforts trying to understanD MATHEMATICS.if only i gt high marks like i did in primary school..haixx..im angry at some ppl..im nt talking to this someone..my frens shuld noe hu..wad d hell..wad he tink im a little kid ah?? find fault on me..he tinks his d best or wad??grrrr...
im fasting well..bt i tink im shrinking[imaging me shrinking like in d cartoon shows]haha..rofl..kk..see you[in ur dreams]!!all of us miss u too lar.. dun worry..dun b sad..just say wad u have to say..im listening..im nvr too busy for u rmmbr??hehe
SMILEZ!!=]]

no entry for love..hehex

9/29/2007 04:03:00 PM

have to study..bt evrytym im studying, i'll fall asleep..wads wimme.. tmr theres chem test for me.. haixx.. tis week super busy.. have to revise, have to do art prep work,more supp class.. i dun want to retain lar.. pray that i dun.. im super super worried.. bt i dunno why my brain arent absorbing much... maybe my brain is as lazy as me.. PATHETIC SEY!! super pathetic.. i tink i'll fail my paper1 esp malay paper[which i've never failed ever in my life]..
shann n nadz say ever since d fatsing month, i look skinnier.. i wan to grow fat lar.. n tall.. obviously bcoz of fasting n d eoy stress.. my brain is super super shaky just that i act as if its nt.. i hope my brain shuld try to SUCK more stuff for exams.. to those i dun reply ur sms-es n msg-es,, super super sorry..
im dehydrating..damn thirsty.. neh mind.. bt i still havnt prepare for hariraya.
i shuld concentrate super more on exams.. i dun even care if my brain xplodes.. im super worried, wad if i still didnt earn anything after bursting my brain.. i shuld just try..ryte??good...
wads wif me n SUPER??aiyah...
hope u understand, k??bubbye...tata..wish me luck..

i will still look ugly with or without specs..i will still look ugly with or without eyebags..haha..hu caresXP

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9/26/2007 05:02:00 PM

haix.. i've said wad i've gotta say.. so its up to u now.. i dun mind..
i tink my class is getting more n more tense evry minute closer to exams.. im scared.. im scared i cant make it like the rest.. help!! evryone is getting tensed and serious.. im scared..
classmates r busy with dnt, art, and many more..
ohmygosh.. my brains are slowing down.. maybe soon enuf it will stop ticking n working.. maybe its turning into candy n sweets..ARGHHHH!! LAMESHIT!!
i cant stop singing.. when i sing, i cant study.. bt i cant study without singing.. ahh.. shit.. but cleaned room.. now im sleeping with yaya.. unlike before.. but we are used to sleeping together since our younger days..haha.. altho im very young now..understand??i dont..haha..
my yaya are begging to xchange phone with her.. so sadly, i deleted all msgs.. nearly cried.. but wadever it is.. all my inbox msgs are stored in my rusty brain[oops, my candy brain]since im a candy brainer..haha..insulting huh..
dats all..i have to find the right path..nt left.. i mean the right as in d correct path..haha lol..bubbye.happy fasting n happy eoy..eoy??hahaha

no entry for love..hehex

9/24/2007 03:00:00 PM

"You're my no.1"
What is love, cos baby I don't know
I got a funny feeling in my heart
If this is love - it feels like butterflies
So tell me baby is this how it starts
I know I've never felt like this before
You're like a drug you got me wanting more
I've got to let you know - I've got to let you know
You're - you're my number one
I'd do anything for you
Catch the rain from the sky, even hold back the tide for you
Baby baby, you're - you're my number one
With you I know I belong
I put the radio on and it's always playing our song
Tell me what - what have I gotta do
Cos I wanna lay a claim on you
To make you mine - for now and for all time
So tell me baby what I gotta do

"I Really Miss You"
I called you today just to hear you say
You were not around
When the message was through, though I wanted to
I couldn't make a sound
I wanna tell you the things I've seen
I wanna take you to where I've been
And I wish you were here with me
Don't you know.
I really miss you - yes I do - yeah
I really miss you
Ohhhh yeah I do.
I'm writing to say I had a wonderful day
Hangin' with my friends
But the memory dies as the sun reach the skies
I'm alone again
I wanna tell you the weather is fine
When the night comes around you were on my mind
And I wish you were here with me
Don't you know

"Have You Ever"
Sometimes it's wrong to walk away, though you think it's over
Knowing there's so much more to say
Suddenly the moment's gone
And all your dreams are upside down
And you just wanna change the way the world goes round.
Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go.
Can't help but think that this is wrong, we should be together
Back in your arms where I belong
Now I've finally realised it was forever that I've found
I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round.
I really wanna hear you say that you know just how it feels
To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see
Even though the moment's gone, I'm still holding on somehow
Wishing I could change the way the world goes round.

no entry for love..hehex

9/22/2007 03:40:00 PM

isnt he cute??=melting==drooling=hahhaaha

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9/22/2007 03:10:00 PM

tanxx for listening to my secrets.. n understanding.. all this while i've been keeping sth that i myself nt sure of.. i cant blif my expression cn b read.. haha.. bt theres juz some things that are not meant o be told.. how cn amirul said secrets are meant to be shared?? HEYY ITS 'SECRETS' IM TALKING BOUT HERE.. secrets are meant to be kept.. wad i feel.. wad someone told me.. wad i tink.. my decisions.. some things r just nt meant to b shared.. to my dear frens, its nt dat i dun want to tell.. bt its just dat i dunno if i shuld.. wad if wad i tot, feel n guess is nt true?? then it'll b embarrasing.. i myself nt assured.. if i noe d whole thing n i am sure im right, i'll tell u guys..
theres just some things dat i cant wait to blurt out.. bt im afraid.. DILEMMA..
i should try nt to show so much reaction.. wad so funny about my reaction n expression?? why cant anyone undestand my expression.. whether im angry or sad.. i've tried my best to b serious bt end up being laugh at.. nt being laugh wif.. just hope i can manage my exam nx week..
im shocked.. never tot u would bt there u go again..i still doubt on you..missing plus smiling..
nevermind.. bubbye.. tata..

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9/21/2007 07:18:00 PM

my tummy hurts alot.. i didnt attend sch today.. didnt get to take chem test.. my tummy is abusing me.. until now.. hurts alooottt larhh.. ouch!! dunno wads wrong.. wad did i eat yestrday dat makes my tummy reacts lyk this.. i found my old bestfriends on friendster.. im sad.. all their pics includes d four of them.. im not in.. i cant b with them anymore.. i stay far from them since i shift house n transfer sch when im in pri6.. hope they still rmmbr me.. i miss n longed to meet them again.. bt i feel lyk i dunno them anymore..we used to b four bestfriends when another new fren joined.. so its five of us.. nw d four of them r so close.. i lost contact with them.. i miss d cck ppl n concordians[concord pri].. this feeling is as hurting as my tummy nw.. if only u noe how it feels to be cast out[atceli nt cast out, bt d feeling nt to with the one u once close to].. i miss them.. bt i guess they r nt them anymore.. sobs..cant post alot..MISSING ALOT OF PPL..n you..

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9/20/2007 04:34:00 PM

Ku pernah punya cinta
Namun kini ku sedang suka kamu
Cintaku dulu tlah ku buang jauh
Kini ku inginkanmu

Ku pernah menyendiri
Disini ruangku terasa sepi
Walaupun bibir penuh gelak tawa
Namun hatiku sepi

*
Jgn bilang tidak bila kita belum mencoba
Siapa yg tau akan sama hatimu dan juga hatiku
Banyak yg bercinta bertahun tahun putus juga
Kuharapkan dengan dirimu walaupun singkat pendekatan cinta kita kan abadi

Jgn bilang tidak waktu dicium aku bingung
Namun dada ini bergetar
makanya sungguh aku mohon
Jangan bilang tidak

omg!!raffi ahmad so cute!!he sang this song.. so cute, so talented! haha.. nice song.. i dunno y i love indon songs alot..hehe..

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9/19/2007 05:31:00 PM

Im not missing you
Been through just about everything that I could go through
When it comes to relationships
Dont know what I was missing or why I aint listen
When I told myself that was it
Now here I go, hurt again
Cause of my curiousity
Now that its over
What else could it be he just had to cheat

I made a promise never to settle
Why didnt I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

[Chorus]
(But) Im not missing you
Im not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
Im not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know Im usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
But this time its different
I dont even feel the distance
Im not missing
Im not missing you

Its a shame in a way cause
I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face oh
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again
When I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?

I made a promise never to settle
Why didnt I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

[Chorus x2]

No I cant be with you
Cause I'm scared felt like I was falling when you left me
I cant keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed
And the person I could be
Love's good when its right
And when it's left in your memory
All the times I let you down
I guess love will be nice for someone elses life

[Chorus]

Im not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I know Im usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
Oh different, feel the distance
Im not missing
Im not missing you

yaya said DENIAL IS A CONFIRMATION..so i put this song.. u'll understand wad i rilly mean.. im not missing u..

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9/17/2007 04:42:00 PM

The person who tagged you is?LiEr
Your relationship with her is?friends
Your 5 impressions of her?lion,strong,fierce,strong,nice legs..hehe..
The most memorable thing she had done for you?strangle me on my neck??
The most memorable words she had said to you?ROARRRR!!haha
If he/ she becomes your lover, you will?love her??cn??hehe
if he/ she becomes your lover, things she has to improve on will be?nt to roar too much..
If he/ she becomes your enemy, you will?scratch her..
If he/ she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?kill me...hahax
The most desired thing you want to do for him/ her now is?sratch her arm till gt scar..HAHA
Your overall impression of him/her?scary lion
How do you think people around you will feel about you?ppl will think"nad is such a pathetic girl"..
The characteristic (s) you love of yourself is /are?nthg to be loved..
The characteristic (s) you hate of yourself is/ are?pathetic,hopeless,useless,pri4girl..
The most ideal person you want to be is?nurain nadhirah. although shes pathetic..hehe
=names=
1)eshan
2)lier
3)farah
4)su
5)shann
6)olga
7)nadz
8)naif
9)keeteng
10)pipi
Who is No. 6[olga] having a relationship with?me..hehe
Is No. 9[keeteng] a female or male?female..a female samurai..jk
If No. 7[nadz] and 10[pipi] are together, will it be a good thing?gross!!no!!pipi is mine!!
How about No. 8[naif] and 5[shann]?HAHAHAHA..
What is No.2[lier] studying about?lions...roarr
When was the last time you had a chat with No. 3[farah]?class corridor..
What kind of music band does No. 8[naif] like?scary ones..haha
Does No. 1[eshan] has any siblings?yup..a bro
Will you woo No. 3[farah]?farah?? she woo me.. i dun woo her..haha
Is No. 4 single?guess so..since she always flirt wif me..haha jk
What's the surname of No. 5[shann]?Lee
What's the hobby of No. 4[su]?biting nails..n SLEEP!!
Do No.5[shann] and 9[keeeteng] get along well? yup..lyk duh..we're pcds..
Where is no.2[lier] studying at?my class..3e5..hhahah
Talk something casually about No. 1[eshan]??ermm..cool..??nice??
Have you tried developing feelings for No. 8[naif]?nope..i cant..someone wont be happy..ryte keeteng??jk..
Where does No. 9[keeteng] live at?in me.. haha..near shuqun there
What colour does No. 4[su] likes?white!!ryte??!
Are No. 5[shann] and 1[eshan] best friends?no..rilly..i think
Does No. 7[nadz] likes No. 2[lier]?dunno.. tmr i ask..haha
How do you get to know No. 2[lier]?hynp!!
Does No. 1[eshan] have any pets?dunno..maeb he keep his monster as pet!!haha..jk onli
Is No. 7 the sexiest person in the world?cant be..her hair is sexy bt im sexier..(pls dun puke)hehe

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9/15/2007 05:20:00 PM

if u guys want to tag.. pls dun use others name.. nonsense sey.. spam uh... stop it sey i dun lyk all dis bullshits..
today had service day which i planned nt to go.. i myself dunno why i decided to go.. im in grp 10, wif fateh, xinyi and aishuang.. we have to visits ppl home.. most dun wan to open d door.. some dun wan to talk to us.. some are freaky.. encounter loads of stuff.. lier, i guess i do d QUIZ u told me to do, nx tym in the nx posts..my mom already nagging bout my studies.. so juz now i studied on the way to sch and on the way back..
watched love is cinta again n bangku kosong..
u, heyy, .... hmmm... i better nt say..

i can bowl..hehex..shhh...

no entry for love..hehex

9/15/2007 05:12:00 PM

two days fasting.. getting dizzy.. bt guess i still cn endure.. im strong..
feeling quite ok..
loads of maths, eng, n art..
art... loving it..
im dying.. but sure cn survive..
i'll nt dissapoint myself or anyone.. i'll do my bestest.. ooops, i mean ,my BEST..
evryone seem stress ryte now..
no mood to post so much..one more hour to breakfast.haixx
i doubt d fact dat.. i dunno..
u noes.. no one noes.. i can easily blif or i'll b fooled..
haix.. im stuck.. the truth.. tell me d truth.. tell evryone about it..
my heart bloating wanting to say.. by i couldnt.. dats wad..
maeb u dun mean it.. ryte?? u dont mean it ryte??
with loads of XXXX, XXXX,XXXXXX..
me..miss...XX

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9/14/2007 04:46:00 PM

Artist : Acha & Irwansyah
Title : Mencintai Cinta

terlalu naif rasanya
bila kuharus milikimu
sosok wanita yang sempurna
yang pernah aku temukan

terlalu lama rasanya
bila kuharus menunggumu
kata yang tersembunyi itu
cinta kau hanya yang tahu

namun bila kau mau
tuk sekedar memahamiku
takkan ada yang bisa
mencintaimu seperti diriku

cinta.. tunjukkan padaku
apa yang dapat kulakukan
untuk membahagiakanmu

terlalu sombong diriku
bila kufikir kaupun mau
bersanding selamanya denganku
dalam suka dalam duka

namun bila kau mau
tuk sekedar memahamiku
takkan ada yang bisa mencintaimu
seperti diriku

cinta.. tunjukkanpadaku
apa yang dapat kulakukan
untuk membahagiakanmu

cinta.. tunjukkanpadaku
apa yang dapat kulakukan
untuk membahagiakanmu

meski harus kuakhiri
penantian yang tak bertepi
ataukah harus kupergi

dis song nice too...

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9/13/2007 06:00:00 PM

love is cinta.. i so love 'ada cinta' so meaningful to me.. listen to irwansyah's voice..damn nice.. favourite sey.. if u dun listen this song, u'll regret it.. rilly.. no kidding.. after listening, 'll understand why i love this song.. listen to the lyrics.. for those dun understand the meanings, refer to me.. hehe.. sobs too..
ek.. ystday eshan msg-ed me.. woohoo!! cool... chat bout loads of things, bt wish could talk more.. bt i understand..
today went for dental check.. i lay for 45mins on that chair.. filling my teeth..
haha..
most of them cant blif watching my sis in dat video in my previous2 post.. haha..
had self-study.. im lonely.. i slept.. den the guys came.. laughed alot..
missing u u noe..

Ucapkanlah kasih..
Satu kata yang kunantikan
Sebab ku tak mampu membaca matamu
Mendengar bisikmu

Nyanyikanlah kasih..
Senandung kata hatimu
Sebab ku tak sanggup
mengartikan getar ini
Sebab ku meragu pada dirimu

Mengapa berat ungkapkan cinta
Padahal ia ada
Dalam rinai hujan, dalam terang bulan
juga dalam sedu sedan ...

Mengapa sulit mengaku cinta
Padahal ia terasa
Dalam rindu dendam, hening malam
cinta ... terasa ada ...

no entry for love..hehex

9/11/2007 05:39:00 PM

love is cinta

no entry for love..hehex

9/11/2007 05:31:00 PM

secret recipe's cake.. damn ex larh..marshmallow cake...

gelojoh.. yaya in her ugly state..

princessses...

rara eating chocs of cake n marshmallow..

love patrick..

after watching this video, u shuld quite noe wad really happened..
on fri, i fell sick.. fever 38.++.. i noe why.. im too tired..
mon[sentosa], weds[swimming n movie], thurs[cheer training], fri[dance workshop]
see why im sick.. physically sick..
sat early in d mornin, went to johor villa at TANJONG PUTERI RESORT or sth..
we swim, bowl, walk, kareoke...n loads of other stuff..
d next day, my papa bday.. bowl again, fuckkking buffet breakfast, went desaru to play wif water...and many more...
now really tired sey...
haixx

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9/10/2007 05:10:00 PM

ada cinta OST love is cinta..acha n irwansyah
Ucapkanlah kasih
Satu kata yang kunantikan
Sebab ku tak mampu
Membaca matamu
Mendengar bisikmu

Nyanyikanlah kasih
Senandung kata hatimu
Sebab ku tak sanggup
Mengartikan getar ini
Sebab ku meragu pada dirimu

Mengapa berat ungkapkan cinta
Padahal ia ada
dalam rinai hujan
Dalam terang bulan
juga dalam sedu sedan
Mengapa sulit mengaku cinta
padahal ia terasa
Dalam rindu dendam
hening malam
cinta terasa ada...

isnt this song very sweet n meaningful?? haixx

i juz came back from holiday at johor n desaru..
fun bt.. sth really pissed us off..
tell about it tmr or other tym..
n should upload some pics too...
nw too tired...
missing...???...

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9/09/2007 11:11:00 PM

love is cinta damn sweet n sad larh.. my com table gt puddles.. coz i cried lyk crazy.. damn fuc***ing sad.. the song ada cinta by acha n irwansyah also very sad.. very very nice.. u'll regret nt watching.. love d song...

weds had swimming.. damn tiring bt fun.. after sch they planned to watch movie.. i tot i couldnt tag along n so i gave up n went home..n i tot it'll b d last tym i met eshan... out of sudden my papa replied my msg and said "K.".. i jumped up.. damn happy.. yaya wasnt happy as she tot is nt fair.. nobody knew i could go except farah..eshan msg n said see u in 2 years tym.. i reached n said dat he should say see u in 2 hours tym.. haha.. booked tickets for '1408'.. waited for amirul lyk crazy.. we bought popcorns n sat in d cinema.. from my left, hasif, fadhil, amirul, farah, me n eshan.. the movie gt alot of shocking parts larh.. i was shock.. according to THEM, whenever there is a scary part, the whole row of chair was moving.. its nt my fault.. or is it?? i dunno.. i covered 3/4 of my facewif my sweater.. dunno why.. im nt timid, its juz dat im nt brave enuf..

after dat, walked a while n den went to delifrance.. eshan's parents treat us.. i dun want to bt amirul hang on to my bag, n so i cant escape.. our dinner was delayed due to some technical error in farah's stomach.. farah, i wot tell anyone wad rilly happened. hehe.. had so much tym chating.. last tym to really spent tym with eshan.. we talked at woodlands mrt platform n lastly at cck mrt platform.. d last tym we had fun.. im gonna miss him larh...

i didnt get to sent him off... eshan, if u r reading this, thnx for understanding...

heyy, i'll rmmbr wad u told me.. take care.. bubbye.. oh n tmr i'll tell amirul wad u told me to tell him at delifrance ysterday,.. haha... so funny...
he went off this morning at 7.30 am.. sobs...

i had cheerleading training at TP for d whole day juz now.. they were kinda cool.. bt atomic slacked alot.. we're pampered.. wad to do.... tmr will b hiphop workshop..

my parents already complaining about my busy schedule during holz n my hmwks...

haix.. im gonna haf to work hard.. my success is ur success too.. heeheeee

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9/06/2007 09:04:00 PM

gonna miss u lyk hell..

bubbye..

no entry for love..hehex

9/03/2007 09:00:00 PM